Walk Away By Folc4evernaday (folc4evernaday@gmail.com) Rated: G Submitted: July, 2018 Summary: What do you do when the one you care about most wants someone else? A response to an introspective challenge. Story Size: 502 words (3Kb as text) *** I should have known. I should have listened. I should have paid attention to the signs. But I didn't. I didn't listen. I didn't look. I did what I always did. I steamrolled through and went after what I wanted. What I wanted was Lois Lane. Actually, I guess if I was really honest with myself what I wanted was the idea of Lois Lane. She reminded me of someone I loved. She reminded me of a time when my heart didn't feel like it was going to break into a million pieces with every breath. She reminded me of a time when the job came with laughter and love. She never looked at me the way she did him. She never laughed as loudly or smiled as brightly. I ignored it. I ignored the signs. I did this to myself. I'm guilty of creating my own heartache. I'm guilty of creating hers. I'm guilty of a lot of things. Most of all I'm guilty of once again finding myself alone and heartbroken. I could fight. I could try and talk her out of it. I could do a lot of things but instead, I walk away knowing despite my best efforts I can't compete. I don't understand it. I don't want to I guess. I knew it deep in my bones from the first time I saw her look at him, but I ignored it. He wasn't good enough for her. He wasn't there for her. He wasn't what she needed. These were the things I told myself as I shamelessly chased after her despite being rebuffed time and time again. These were the things I told myself when we had our date and I could see the pain in her eyes as she stared back at me. These were the things I told myself when I saw the pained look in his eyes every time I showed up at her apartment or at the Planet. He wasn't good enough for her. He wasn't there for her. He wasn't what she needed. Those were the lies I told myself to justify what I'd done. Those were the lies I told myself to squash the guilt I felt every time I saw her steal a glance toward him or look away. He may not be able to compete against me when it came to the things I thought mattered: looks, gifts, and being able to show her a good time. No, he didn't stack up against me in that department, but somewhere deep down he checked all the boxes and hit all the high notes on a scale I couldn't even weigh in on. I'd lost before I'd even begun. She *chose* him. She *loved* him. She *wanted* him. I was just too bullheaded to see it. THE END